"when she sleeps,
there is a fevered dream.
it brings a night terror,
to harm this fragile bird.
she speaks in tongues,
her words they come undone.
and with her wayward mind,
she struggles through the night."
20. female. australian.
trying to find order within a disordered mind.
i want to lose weight,
and i want control,
but mainly i just want to be beautiful.
Today I made a broth out of vegetable stock, celery and a tablespoon of greek yoghurt, next time I don’t think it needs the greek yoghurt so will be heaps less calorie wise.
For one massive fucking bowl it was only 69.5cal and i’m so full I feel like I could explode.
okay, so i’m thinking, I could make a super healthy salad (trying not to count calories, but I know it would be okay) and then try not to eat for about 5 hours, then have the other half of my soup.
I’m drinking tonight, so I could have my soup and then a slice of multigrain toast and then will probably have had enough carbs so that I won’t get too drunk to quickly and die.
also, I need to post a picture of my new favourite bowl!
- 1 sugarfree energy drink: 23cals.
- 1 mediterranean soup: 88cals.
- 1 spicy thai noodle soup: 182cals.
=293
I’ve been off work sick all week,
going to see my scary Russian doctor today though.
I woke up, and had carrot sticks with spicy capsicum dip.
it was a nice way to start the day :)but why do I still feel guilty about it
- 1 vanilla latte
-1 banana
- 1 muesli bar
- 1 cup of soup
- 1 apple
This is really vague and no calories have been counted yet, because I’m doing this sneakily while my boyfriends in the shower.
But yeah! Alright day :)
- one soy vanilla latte
- one vegetarian sushi roll
-a few hot chips
-there will probably be something later because i have a bottle of rum and a diet ginger ale waiting for me tonight :) can’t get drunk too quick.
1 vanilla latte.
4 sushi rolls, which I attempted to throw-up at work, that was a bad choice.
- 1 vanilla latte, two sugars. 163 cals
- 1 coffee, bit of milk, two sweetners. 88 cals
- 2 small vegetarian sushi rolls. 300 cals
- 1 sugarfree V energy drink. 15 cals
- 1 vanilla green tea. 5 cals
TOTAL= 571 cals
