"when she sleeps,
there is a fevered dream.
it brings a night terror,
to harm this fragile bird.
she speaks in tongues,
her words they come undone.
and with her wayward mind,
she struggles through the night."
20. female. australian.
trying to find order within a disordered mind.
i want to lose weight,
and i want control,
but mainly i just want to be beautiful.
i know that the things i post can be triggering, and i know that a lot of the time i’m not good at warning people about that.
i’d just like to say this now, if there’s anyone who’s following me who finds anything i post triggering then pleasepleasejust unfollow me?
i’d much rather that than give anyone any negative feelings.
If I were given Miranda Kerr’s (or insert another random models name here) body. I would still be sleeping all day and depressed all the time and have no friends… I’d just be able to look on the mirror and be like “fuck yeah, i’m drop dead gorgeous!” *goes back to bed*
so, i’ve written my resume, and have to go looking for a hospitality job tomorrow.
i’m kind of nervous because i’m not sure what to say and especially not sure what to wear.
but i need money! i keep thinking about how much i want to go online shopping, thats the only thing spurring me on.
haha.
i’m finding life really, really overwhelming at the moment.
all i do all day is lie in bed and cry and think about how i’m going to keep this up for much longer.
i feel like i need to tell someone, but i’m too terrified of hurting my family and i don’t think my friends will care.
i need help because i don’t know where this will lead.
